First creativity post 2011

Little boy

Oh little boy,

you chain yourself to your secret,

by putting on a mask,

so no one will ever know.

Oh little boy,

you're hiding away your secret,

making your heart so heavy.

Oh little boy,

you used to play that game,

not knowing it will chain you forever.

Now you try to break free,

not knowing it's in vain.

Now you try to fly,

ending up again on the ground.

Before you fly,

you have to be free.

Before you spread your wings,

the chains need to be broken.

Happy New Year and all that stuff ;)

OMG and again it's a new year, though it's almost old already :D it's the middle of January already O.o What wishes do you have for the year 2011? I have only one wish :) I want to find some work :) Just two or three months, then I will graduate :)

Basically here happened a lot of things ;) I moved at the end of last year inside Helsinki :) and well then I was extremely busy with studying for my last exam, which I passed and so my very last course is done as well :) Tamk time is definitely coming to an end. When I think of 2008 when I started to study, gosh it feels like an eternity ago though it's just 2 1/2 years ago. I had so many nice moments during those 2 1/2 years, I got to know such nice people, and I guess some will stay friends for a lifetime :) and of course there were also moments that everyone tries to forget :D and I guess in my case I really was able to move them into the corner of my brain which is not so often used so that I just forget all those moments :D or the other possibility is, that most of the time there were just nice moments :D

Ok, folks it's 11:47pm, so I guess it's time to start the journey to the dreamland ;)

I wish you all a nice (rest-)week and of course a nice weekend ;)

xxx

Oceanlady

wishes once again and still in vain

hello and here comes another cloud of thoughts,

Last week I had a talk with a friend. It made me realize (once again) that there are several levels of communication. You know you talk to someone, and still even though the person is listening to you they are not listening as well. They hear the words, but they don't understand them. Some might say this happens a lot when one is not talking in their mother-tongue, but I say even in when talking your mother-tongue this kind of misunderstanding somehow became so common and usual in nowadays' world.But why?

Why can't people just rest some minutes per day and try to listen first of all to themselves? I believe that far too many of us are so restless that they just can't stop any minute to just listen to themselves and their feelings, wishes or dreams; But I think that those dreams, hopes, wishes (or whatever there is) is important to gather the energy for the life itself and for friends who need our help. I mean friends, those people who are pretty close to one, they can give you so much, but from time to time they also need your support. And since you are called as a friend by them isn't normal to help then. Well for me it is obvious to help, but I learned last week that this doesn't go for everyone.

What am I actually talking about?!?! I suppose it's the normal life, that people change as soon as their life situation changes. Before I started to write this entry I was looking through some old photos (back in the days so to say :D), nice memories came up while looking at those photos. Maybe I am at the moment just thinking to much of the past, but I am just not so good with loosing people and it kinda always throws me back down...

well I hope all those thoughts, that I kinda tried to write down here, aren't too foggy and unclear ;).

xxx

Oceanlady

Ways of life

Hello lovely world out there :)

I am back. A lot of things have happened in my life lately. Another chapter in my life has been finished. My internship is over. It was an amazing time, and I really enjoyed it. Right now I kinda have too much spare time, though I know I should enjoy since my bachelor's thesis is just around the corner ;). So another busy time is about to come ;) but the internship time was somehow special and it was nice to get to know such nice people and OF COURSE to get foot into the business ;).

Apart from my internship I kinda started to think a bit about things that happened lately. With things I mean more or less the relationship between two individuals. I am talking about any kind of relationship, no matter whether it's a friendship or a serious relationship between man and woman, woman and woman or man and man. I don't know, but lately I started to notice that people change/d. That they keep on going their way of life and so do I and eventual both paths will go on apart from each other. I mean it's not that I didn't knew that already. It's just that there are people in my life who I kinda value more than others (I guess/hope everybody has such people in their life), and somehow I feel right now that with some of those people the communication is becoming more and more one-way-communication. Or at least the first action is just coming from one side. I just ask myself why? I mean it's OK, to start a new chapter in your life but is that reason enough to leave friends behind who you used to call your bestie? Maybe but I am not so sure about that ! Since I moved abroad certain people showed me that even 1200km between us can't change anything ;). And I am so happy to know those few people :) :*.

Maybe it's just time to let go, but I just don't want to loose this one person....

This entry has been a bit more personal than the others, but I somehow needed to get my thoughts out of my head, I am pretty sure you all know this kind of feeling ;).

Lots of Love,

Oceanlady

still between dream and reality

Hi,

sorry that I was a bit more quiet lately. There were just some things that I kinda needed to sort out for myself before writing anything down here.

I am just listening to some music that reminds me of the hardest days in my life, and still listening to those songs makes me feel weird and brings thoughts back that I thought I buried a long time ago. Ok there are also some nice thoughts coming up again. Memories of some special moments which I spent with a very good friend of mine. Guess we are still friends because we share the same kind of weirdness :D Though I haven't seen her in person for a long time I enjoy knowing that she is still there, when I need her... Thanks at this point to her *waves towards the neighbor-country*.

but just to quote one song that I just listened, which I think fitted about 7 years ago quite as well as it does nowadays: "....she lives in the clouds, talks to the birds,... hopeless little one".

best wishes,

Oceanlady

Deep in a dream

This happens on a Sunday when there is too much time to think about different things. I just somehow needed to get some of my thoughts out of my head, so I was again a bit creative.

Deep in a Dream

Deep in a dream,
following the beauty,
finding the heaven.
True love's first kiss.

Dreaming of wonderland,
a place without time.
Love dwells,
as thorns grow.

Wishing upon a star,
beneath Elysian fields,
still not one with Hades.

Sight for eternity,
grasp the broken lines.

Standing by the shore,
deep in a dream

copyright by Oceanlady

Oh Mr. Medicine

As Eliza Doolittle sings:

"Oh Mr. Medicine,
I will take anything.
What do you recommend?
Oh Mr. Medicine,
I need my vitamins.
Will I feel better then?"

Though I heavily doubt right now that vitamins would help right now ;). I think I'd prefer a big bowl of chocolate ice-cream, some good movie and my bestie here with me. But well, as we all noticed already, life ain't an everlasting lollypop.
This week was just way out of track. I am just not a friend of hidden messages somewhere between two lines. Why can't people talk directly to each other, and say what they mean (or at least they could try)?!? I am just slowly tired of figuring things out.
OK, then again I had to learn (once again) that whatever a person tells there'll be always people who won't take that person serious or whatever, I have no idea... But I for my taste, believe a person when they tell me the sun ain't shining, that the sun really isn't shining. I won't go and look through the window just to see by myself that the sun really isn't out there shining (anyhow just seeing a grey sky is not that nice ;)). But I guess you folks got the point that I just tried to make clear.

Lots of love from Finland,
Oceanlady