Sunday, November 21, 2010

wishes once again and still in vain

hello and here comes another cloud of thoughts,

Last week I had a talk with a friend. It made me realize (once again) that there are several levels of communication. You know you talk to someone, and still even though the person is listening to you they are not listening as well. They hear the words, but they don't understand them. Some might say this happens a lot when one is not talking in their mother-tongue, but I say even in when talking your mother-tongue this kind of misunderstanding somehow became so common and usual in nowadays' world.But why?
Why can't people just rest some minutes per day and try to listen first of all to themselves? I believe that far too many of us are so restless that they just can't stop any minute to just listen to themselves and their feelings, wishes or dreams; But I think that those dreams, hopes, wishes (or whatever there is) is important to gather the energy for the life itself and for friends who need our help. I mean friends, those people who are pretty close to one, they can give you so much, but from time to time they also need your support. And since you are called as a friend by them isn't normal to help then. Well for me it is obvious to help, but I learned last week that this doesn't go for everyone.
What am I actually talking about?!?! I suppose it's the normal life, that people change as soon as their life situation changes. Before I started to write this entry I was looking through some old photos (back in the days so to say :D), nice memories came up while looking at those photos. Maybe I am at the moment just thinking to much of the past, but I am just not so good with loosing people and it kinda always throws me back down...

well I hope all those thoughts, that I kinda tried to write down here, aren't too foggy and unclear ;).


Monday, November 8, 2010

Ways of life

Hello lovely world out there :)

I am back. A lot of things have happened in my life lately. Another chapter in my life has been finished. My internship is over. It was an amazing time, and I really enjoyed it. Right now I kinda have too much spare time, though I know I should enjoy since my bachelor's thesis is just around the corner ;). So another busy time is about to come ;) but the internship time was somehow special and it was nice to get to know such nice people and OF COURSE to get foot into the business ;).

Apart from my internship I kinda started to think a bit about things that happened lately. With things I mean more or less the relationship between two individuals. I am talking about any kind of relationship, no matter whether it's a friendship or a serious relationship between man and woman, woman and woman or man and man. I don't know, but lately I started to notice that people change/d. That they keep on going their way of life and so do I and eventual both paths will go on apart from each other. I mean it's not that I didn't knew that already. It's just that there are people in my life who I kinda value more than others (I guess/hope everybody has such people in their life), and somehow I feel right now that with some of those people the communication is becoming more and more one-way-communication. Or at least the first action is just coming from one side. I just ask myself why? I mean it's OK, to start a new chapter in your life but is that reason enough to leave friends behind who you used to call your bestie? Maybe but I am not so sure about that ! Since I moved abroad certain people showed me that even 1200km between us can't change anything ;). And I am so happy to know those few people :) :*.

Maybe it's just time to let go, but I just don't want to loose this one person....

This entry has been a bit more personal than the others, but I somehow needed to get my thoughts out of my head, I am pretty sure you all know this kind of feeling ;).

Lots of Love,