Thursday, September 30, 2010

still between dream and reality


sorry that I was a bit more quiet lately. There were just some things that I kinda needed to sort out for myself before writing anything down here.

I am just listening to some music that reminds me of the hardest days in my life, and still listening to those songs makes me feel weird and brings thoughts back that I thought I buried a long time ago. Ok there are also some nice thoughts coming up again. Memories of some special moments which I spent with a very good friend of mine. Guess we are still friends because we share the same kind of weirdness :D Though I haven't seen her in person for a long time I enjoy knowing that she is still there, when I need her... Thanks at this point to her *waves towards the neighbor-country*.

but just to quote one song that I just listened, which I think fitted about 7 years ago quite as well as it does nowadays: "....she lives in the clouds, talks to the birds,... hopeless little one".

best wishes,

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Deep in a dream

This happens on a Sunday when there is too much time to think about different things. I just somehow needed to get some of my thoughts out of my head, so I was again a bit creative.

Deep in a Dream

Deep in a dream,
following the beauty,
finding the heaven.
True love's first kiss.

Dreaming of wonderland,
a place without time.
Love dwells,
as thorns grow.

Wishing upon a star,
beneath Elysian fields,
still not one with Hades.

Sight for eternity,
grasp the broken lines.

Standing by the shore,
deep in a dream

copyright by Oceanlady

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Oh Mr. Medicine

As Eliza Doolittle sings:

"Oh Mr. Medicine,
I will take anything.
What do you recommend?
Oh Mr. Medicine,
I need my vitamins.
Will I feel better then?"

Though I heavily doubt right now that vitamins would help right now ;). I think I'd prefer a big bowl of chocolate ice-cream, some good movie and my bestie here with me. But well, as we all noticed already, life ain't an everlasting lollypop.
This week was just way out of track. I am just not a friend of hidden messages somewhere between two lines. Why can't people talk directly to each other, and say what they mean (or at least they could try)?!? I am just slowly tired of figuring things out.
OK, then again I had to learn (once again) that whatever a person tells there'll be always people who won't take that person serious or whatever, I have no idea... But I for my taste, believe a person when they tell me the sun ain't shining, that the sun really isn't shining. I won't go and look through the window just to see by myself that the sun really isn't out there shining (anyhow just seeing a grey sky is not that nice ;)). But I guess you folks got the point that I just tried to make clear.

Lots of love from Finland,

Thursday, September 9, 2010


Dreams, where do they come from? Do we really decide by ourselves what our dreams and wishes in life are, or is it all influenced by the surrounding in which we grow up etc.? Why do some of us give up their dreams and why have others the energy to fight for their dreams?

I by myself can't complain that my dreams just stay dreams. I managed to make my biggest dream reality!
Then again I meet people and they tell me, what they would like to do; but within the same second they also tell me all the negative things that may happen, and in the end they somehoe stopped believing in their dreams. But why? At least from my own experience I learned, that when you think positive it is much easier to achieve your goal(s) or dreams. I know it's sometimes hard to think positive and sometimes it even might be good to just let the tears run, but there is always the moment when one should think of tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, because the sun will always return one day. As it is already said in one of my all-time favourite movies: "It can't rain all the time."
I know that I am probably anyhow just a damn optimist ;) but I haven't been always like that, I learned to think positive, and so I believe that others can as well.

And honestly the world would be also so much nicer and better if not every second person is whining all the time ;).

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Music Post

Hi folks,

here comes again a post. But a slightly different this time!!! I am just listening to the album "Happiness" by Hurts. And gosh I have to say this a really good one! It's this typical kind of synthi-pop influenced music with the right amount of melancholy mixed into it. I bet most of you have heard the first two singles from the album (at least those of you who switch on the radio from time to time ;))

For me this is definitely one of the best albums of the year. And the lyrics of the song "The water" are just so touching.
If you haven't heard of "Hurts" yet, then check them out. I think it's really worth it!!!

With love from Finland,

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Time will not heal a dead boy's scar

Dear Folks out there :)

here I am again :) back from the City Ranch in Lepsämä :) I was there for a friend's housewarming party, so yeah it was a nice weekend :) Though I had some conversation last night, that made me recall several things.

Sometimes life goes such weird ways, and due to such strange ways (which we often don't understand immediately) people have to go through some really shitty things in their life. I experienced that if you still keep your eyes open while going through some shit, then you will notice that there is always someone trying to help, if you let that person help you. Of course sometimes the person can't help to ease the pain or make the tears stop falling. But that person will at least try to catch your tears before they start to build up a lake in which you will drown.
I by myself experienced that it's sometimes hard to keep the eyes open and to take one step after another out of the mess, but moments like this weekend (being with really good friends) shows me once again, that it's always worth to keep on fighting.

Paradise Seeker

Your heart captured,
locked in a golden box.
Hidden somewhere,
far away so no one will ever find it.

You use to loose yourself,
into the fairytale of golden days.
You use to hide your tears,
between the lines of your lullaby.

Your dreams,
broken and buried.
Lost back in time,
when the sun still used to shine.

My dear, I know,
you've been hurt,
you're craving for peace.
But let me ease your pain,
show you the way to your garden of Eden,
and bring back the smile I loved so well.

Lots of Love from Finland,