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Hi folks :)

Today I just had to fulfill one cliché about women :D. I went shopping and what did I buy? ;) yeah right a pair of shoes :) I saw them in the store and well I just fell in love with them :) they will fit perfectly with the dress that I will wear at my brother's confirmation. So there was no other way than buying them :)

xxx

Oceanlady

Happy International Women's Day

Dear all women out there,

just a short post. I hope you all had/have a great women's day.

My day wasn't any different to other days, I sent out some job application and well let's hope that I'll find a job soon ;). But at least everyone keeps telling me, that I'll find something :) so let's see what the near future holds for me.

Best wishes,

Oceanlady

Historical Moment

STRIKE!!!!

It's done :D I am just so extremely happy :) Another Chapter is closed, my Bachelor's thesis is ready to submit. What a wonderful feeling :) Well ok, it's almost ready to submit, I still need to convert it into a pdf-file :) but the rest is done :).

Thanks at this point to all the people who supported me throughout the whole process. I think without your help I wouldn't have make it so far. Those few people didn't just support me by giving me advices, but also listening to me, when again I was complaining about several different problems which I faced at some points ;).

Last Wednesday I finally met someone in person with whom I was writing already for some months via skype (the contact to her came via another friend). Well, I really did have some nice talk with her, and I am still thinking about some things that we've talked about. For example we were talking about friendships in general as well as a little bit in detail. But I won't mention any details here ;) but well let me just tell you a bit. Lately I am thinking more and more about one person. Sometimes I ask myself whether I just expect too much or whether that person really has changed so much. That person and I used to share a lot with each other, we basically knew everything about the other one. Now I wonder whether that was maybe a bit too much. The communication between us becomes more and more a one-way communication and honestly slowly I don't know whether any action from my side is still worth it. But the again I don't wanna loose that person so easily. Last year I took one step in the hope that also that person wakes up and will become more active again. For a short period it even helped, but now it seems like everything got back to routine again, and so the communication died away again.

I think I am just extremely disappointed and that's why I try to somehow keep that friendship, but maybe I just have to let go. Friendships come and go, I got to know that already. But I never thought I'd loose this one....

well anyway I wish you all a nice and joyful weekend.

xxx

Oceanlady

First creativity post 2011

Little boy

Oh little boy,

you chain yourself to your secret,

by putting on a mask,

so no one will ever know.

Oh little boy,

you're hiding away your secret,

making your heart so heavy.

Oh little boy,

you used to play that game,

not knowing it will chain you forever.

Now you try to break free,

not knowing it's in vain.

Now you try to fly,

ending up again on the ground.

Before you fly,

you have to be free.

Before you spread your wings,

the chains need to be broken.

Happy New Year and all that stuff ;)

OMG and again it's a new year, though it's almost old already :D it's the middle of January already O.o What wishes do you have for the year 2011? I have only one wish :) I want to find some work :) Just two or three months, then I will graduate :)

Basically here happened a lot of things ;) I moved at the end of last year inside Helsinki :) and well then I was extremely busy with studying for my last exam, which I passed and so my very last course is done as well :) Tamk time is definitely coming to an end. When I think of 2008 when I started to study, gosh it feels like an eternity ago though it's just 2 1/2 years ago. I had so many nice moments during those 2 1/2 years, I got to know such nice people, and I guess some will stay friends for a lifetime :) and of course there were also moments that everyone tries to forget :D and I guess in my case I really was able to move them into the corner of my brain which is not so often used so that I just forget all those moments :D or the other possibility is, that most of the time there were just nice moments :D

Ok, folks it's 11:47pm, so I guess it's time to start the journey to the dreamland ;)

I wish you all a nice (rest-)week and of course a nice weekend ;)

xxx

Oceanlady

wishes once again and still in vain

hello and here comes another cloud of thoughts,

Last week I had a talk with a friend. It made me realize (once again) that there are several levels of communication. You know you talk to someone, and still even though the person is listening to you they are not listening as well. They hear the words, but they don't understand them. Some might say this happens a lot when one is not talking in their mother-tongue, but I say even in when talking your mother-tongue this kind of misunderstanding somehow became so common and usual in nowadays' world.But why?

Why can't people just rest some minutes per day and try to listen first of all to themselves? I believe that far too many of us are so restless that they just can't stop any minute to just listen to themselves and their feelings, wishes or dreams; But I think that those dreams, hopes, wishes (or whatever there is) is important to gather the energy for the life itself and for friends who need our help. I mean friends, those people who are pretty close to one, they can give you so much, but from time to time they also need your support. And since you are called as a friend by them isn't normal to help then. Well for me it is obvious to help, but I learned last week that this doesn't go for everyone.

What am I actually talking about?!?! I suppose it's the normal life, that people change as soon as their life situation changes. Before I started to write this entry I was looking through some old photos (back in the days so to say :D), nice memories came up while looking at those photos. Maybe I am at the moment just thinking to much of the past, but I am just not so good with loosing people and it kinda always throws me back down...

well I hope all those thoughts, that I kinda tried to write down here, aren't too foggy and unclear ;).

xxx

Oceanlady

Ways of life

Hello lovely world out there :)

I am back. A lot of things have happened in my life lately. Another chapter in my life has been finished. My internship is over. It was an amazing time, and I really enjoyed it. Right now I kinda have too much spare time, though I know I should enjoy since my bachelor's thesis is just around the corner ;). So another busy time is about to come ;) but the internship time was somehow special and it was nice to get to know such nice people and OF COURSE to get foot into the business ;).

Apart from my internship I kinda started to think a bit about things that happened lately. With things I mean more or less the relationship between two individuals. I am talking about any kind of relationship, no matter whether it's a friendship or a serious relationship between man and woman, woman and woman or man and man. I don't know, but lately I started to notice that people change/d. That they keep on going their way of life and so do I and eventual both paths will go on apart from each other. I mean it's not that I didn't knew that already. It's just that there are people in my life who I kinda value more than others (I guess/hope everybody has such people in their life), and somehow I feel right now that with some of those people the communication is becoming more and more one-way-communication. Or at least the first action is just coming from one side. I just ask myself why? I mean it's OK, to start a new chapter in your life but is that reason enough to leave friends behind who you used to call your bestie? Maybe but I am not so sure about that ! Since I moved abroad certain people showed me that even 1200km between us can't change anything ;). And I am so happy to know those few people :) :*.

Maybe it's just time to let go, but I just don't want to loose this one person....

This entry has been a bit more personal than the others, but I somehow needed to get my thoughts out of my head, I am pretty sure you all know this kind of feeling ;).

Lots of Love,

Oceanlady